Hi Moms! This long break from blogging gave me much time to reflect, to search and examine my purpose for doing this.
There came an inner struggle, between serving God’s Purpose, if indeed I was, and feelings of unworthiness to serve the Lord through this. Moreover, there came this familiar struggle between keeping my innermost thoughts, feelings and experiences to myself and sharing my pain for the world to read.
There was this realization, which I heard from a speaker regarding the use of social media these days, as to whether I have an ‘online’ self, or I have one real self – online or not. I definitely prefer the latter – and this means going against the waves of the present time.
Eventually, through prayer, I sensed that God wants me to share much about my crosses as much as about my blessings, to encourage the discouraged, to uplift the depressed, which was the original purpose of this blog, anyway. I guess somewhere along the way, God’s Purpose has not changed. It was I who diverted from it, out of disobedience, out of pride, out of fear of being judged. It was I who did not trust God enough.
When something went wrong with my blog and I had to set it up all over again, I recalled how I had not been diligently working on this blog in the past. How sorry I was that it was taken from me at a time I least expected, at the time when some people needed my help through this. Similarly, this happens to human souls. We simply do not know the time when God will call us to Himself and when it happens, we will want to have more time to love, serve and suffer for God in this temporary life – but there will be none…
Finally, God has allowed me to get back today, for a fresh start.
Eventually, I will have to repost again some of my old posts. But for the meantime, it feels great to start anew.
God demands pure honesty, in joy and in sorrow. God demands hard work in His Vineyard – no excuses!
And what a blessed day this is.
Beginning today, may this blog be a blessing to you, dear moms – to you – and to me through the Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank God for today!
Let’s do it for love.
To God be the glory!